Thoughts

As I lay in bed, cuddled closely with my body pillow, I can't help but be a little frustrated with myself. Why can't I decide on a single set of feelings? Why can't I decide on a single path I want to take? The simple answer is that you don't choose the outcome of your path, your decisions do. And no one knows where all of their decisions will cummulatively lead. I just feel like my decisions and thoughts and feelings and actions are misleading me. I feel like they change so often and abruptly that I'll never end up where I want to be because I couldn't decide on one side or the other.

The playlist I'm falling asleep to doesn't help either, I'm assuming.

It's Homecoming week here at SMU and for the first time I'm really feeling like a college student. I just hope that doesn't affect the big picture of what could happen.

Love Always

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