Miscellaneous

I'm too tired to form legitimate thoughts right now, thank you nyquil. However, I do have a lot of things on my mind. Again, thanks sleep aides. 

--I recently named my blog. Completely insignificant to everyone but me, yes. But it is an amazing song and it just so fitting right now. It's Alexisonfire, look it up. <3

--My youngest step brother, Chason, widdled me a heart tonight. Well, he didn't really widdle it. He just carved it. But it was brought to my attention that I had no idea what widdling was until now. And then when I read my favorite blog tonight, it referenced widdling. Ironic? Also, if you look really closely, he definitely engraved "I <3 U" in it. Ahh, my family.

--I want to read Through the Looking Glass as soon as I make myself finish Sense & Sensibility. 


--I'm getting my hair cut in the morning and I think I want to do something drastic to it. I just feel like my life needs a little drastic right now. You know, a change? But I'm a huge wuss when it comes to my hair and probably won't get anything crazy done. I do feel like its time for a change though...


--I really thought that my next car might be a Volvo S40. Sexy from the back. But I'm rethinking. Currently taking suggestions. I want it sexy, real sexy.


--I have a response slash continuation to Katie's late night post. There's a little section about needing others' validation. I mentioned to a friend, slash someone I thought was a friend but that's a whole other entry, that sometimes (in reality it's most of the time though) I need a guy, or anyone really, to feel really good about everything. You know, you need to be wanted to feel deserving sometimes. And she pretty much told me I was crazy. So its nice to hear that I'm not. Sometimes when you're view of yourself is a little blurry, you need to use someone else as a mirror. You take on the role they see you as, because at that time, that's all you can see. This probably makes no sense, I'm sorry. Sometimes its easier to find yourself in someone else. But right now, I'm really working on find myself in me. In books and in music and in friends and in school and in hopes and in dreams and in thoughts.


I'm too tired to even think anymore.

Love Always.