Valentines

I don’t believe in Valentine’s Day. Not because I’m bitter, I’d still feel this way if I had a significant other. I just don’t think that one day should define a relationship of any kind. I don’t ever want to celebrate Valentine’s Day. If the person I’m with wants to make me feel really special, bring me flowers on a day that he isn’t expected to by society. It’s things like that that define a relationship, not cookie cutter holidays.

But is it contradictory that I’m mad that C isn’t doing anything for me? Just after everything I’ve done for him, the $200 Christmas present for which I got nothing but the cold shoulder in return, the broken promises, the fact that I let him come over whenever because he has nowhere else to go, I could go on…. I feel that a like reciprocation would be nice. I guess the thing that really bothers me is that he’s doing more for this girl he isn’t even dating than he did for me when we were together. Tuesday is his birthday, and I’ll get him something (Any ideas on what, though?!), but then I’m through. It’s becoming more and more clear to me that this isn’t worth it anymore.