Sad?

This week hasn't been good. It hasn't been bad. But there's something that has come up that I've used as an excuse for my lack of productivity, crying, and a trip to a friend's apartment- the kind that only happen when I'm upset and she feels the need to invite me over to talk. My opinion changes every minute of this situation. I don't know if we're really friends or if she just feels obligated to be that way... Not the point though. Anyway, her, her roommate, and I has a little chat about what I believe in when it comes to love. (Seems like that's a recent pattern in my life. Ugh.) But anyway, after pretty much laying out how I feel about everything, someone said, "Wow, that's sad." Not as in the situation, because that wasn't what we were talking about at all. My beliefs, what would satisfy me in the long run, what I want, etc. And she said it's sad. I don't know how I feel about that. I don't feel negative about it, just really blank, I suppose.

If you'd like a summary, here it is: I want to place practicality above all else. I don't want to fall in love. I just want to have what I want, a career I want and a life I want. When I think of the future, I don't see, or wish for, a family and a husband and love. I'm not saying I'm against any of that, but I just don't think it's what I'll end up wanting. I want to have a job I love; I want to have amazing friends; I want to be involved in so many things that I don't have time for anything else but work and friends. 

I think this is inspired by me picking Sense and Sensibilty back up and trying to read it again. I just can't because it's just everything that I don't want. Anyway, sorry for the rant and rambling.