A Hit and a Miss

So I was planning on writing some blog entry tonight about playing Wii Bowling with my little brother and owning him since I'm supposed to like love my life these days or whatever. But something happened and I am not pleased. Well, several somethings happened and they just added up for me getting the short end of the stick. Which probably isn't a completely bad thing, but I'm still not pleased nonetheless, because it isn't what I wanted. Or want still. I'm going to assume that there will be some explanation of it in the morning and that I'm just tired and that's why my level off crazy is off the charts. (Six calls and two texts isn't that crazy right?!) I mean, if you only knew. Oh my god, that's what all girls say. That means its time to take K's advice and take Christmas break for myself. Unless there's an explanation in the morning. I need a filler, bad. That would solve my problems, seriously. Omg, I make no sense and I'm rambling about how ridiculous I am. This stops now.

So in a completely non related topic (yeah, right.): how much forgiveness until you can't forgive anymore? How many times are you supposed to be understanding until it just isn't worth it anymore? Because eventually there has to be a point where you look at everything and just think, "Wow. This has gone too far and I need to do what's best for me." But I mean, I have no clue what's best for me. Because lonely nights like this are not cutting it. 

Ugh, I'm going to watch Hulu until I pass out. Because I have faith that'll cheer me up. You know what, though? First, I'm going to make a list of things I want to start focusing on instead of you know what/who. Yessss. This is one of those blogs where I start off in tears and end up having some hope. But if you're reading this, I really don't care when or who you are, you should text me or contact me in some way. I would like that and I promise I won't whine or talk about C. Okay, list time.

1. Learn French. Seriously. I have Rosetta Stone.
2. Read books. Because I'm 95% positive I got a gift card to half price books for Christmas.
3. Post something I like on my blog.
4. Go to Dedman. That's right, get it.
5. Speaking of getting it, go to the library!! Maybe I'll even venture to the Law library next semester. Mm. Since almost all of my classes are math next semester (seriously, all but one), I want to go to the library without my computer- so seriously no distractions.
   
6. Go out. Like I want to have some legit fun.
7. Cook something new and not boring!
8. Clean and organize! Woo!
9. Write. Again.
10. Go for walks around campus. So pretty. Join me?
11. Essentially, get work done.

Okay. I feel better. Ah, the power of lists. Hulu time for a much more positive me.

Love Always.